nvrltugo..

i miss you. 

i can feel. 

love decreasing.

i can feel another one joining in.

everyday im longging for you.

everyday i love you.

i know im suck.

i hate myself too.

when the time you loves me,

i doesnt know how to appreciate.

when the time past and you gave up,

i started to regret and know whats appreciate.

its all myself.

all i want for christmas , new year and everything is just you.

You. 

I know you might feel stupid if i tell you what ive done this few days.

you might hate me.

you might ignore me scold me. 

but this is what ive done.

i'll never tell.

outlook is happy,

inner pain.

idk youre purposely or what.

you dint hang up the phone i listened everything.

you can scold me for this.

i dont mind.

i started to cry.

i know,there's no turning back for me and u,

but i will never give up.

i know you still love me.

i know you still love me. 

i know you still love me.

i feel weird. weird for everything from you.

love is gone.

09-01-2013. 

reaching soon.

3years 6 month. 

cnt even reach.

im sorry.

i know i hurt you alot of times,

making empty promises.

telling lies,

flirting around,

bad tempered,

lazy,

but,you still be with me no matter what.

thank you for that.

i know ive said i wanna change many times,

but i dint,

end up just air.

but now, from now on,

what i said i will hold and keep my promises.

i wont hurt you anymore.

appreciate you.

last time i dont dare to imagine my life without you.

now i do. 

i cant face that.

no more morning calls.

no more goodnight calls.

no one reminds me.

im sad.

im angry at myself.

i know there no turning back.

i just pray everyday.

pray and hope i can be with her together.

i will do my best and be my best. 

baby,i miss everything.

im happy with you.

i love you,forever.

NVRLTUGO.

Kisses from me.

Raymond.